some things to be understood/realized/remembered/all three

few observations during these days I've not been blogging!

1. Most of the times, we need not do things to show we repect our parents and more imporatantly, that we LOVE them. But, we must show these things whenever possible.. if possible, everytime. After all, in the end these are the only two people who'll like to see us much above they are/were.
2. Most of the times it may be REQUIRED that we show our hatred towards most of the people around us.. that we don't give a damn to them... But never do that.
3. Never get into debates. If u get into one, never allow your opposition to win (Exception: ur loved ones, doesn't matter even if you're defeated).

Guess I should add some pics in my next posts...!

and return back to that joyous writing instead of that in the last 2 or 3 posts!! and readers, if u get bored with those 2 0r 3, don't "close window", but click "older posts" instead.. inside, it's different!

A path of chances

walking with both hands in my pockets n looking down the road, not really watching every step... most of them carelessly laid.. thinking about the future.... uninterested in the present... long forgotten past...

I was walking to a meat shop around 6 to buy some meat for sona(my pet)... Winters, it's getting darker earlier than usual... I stopped having meat.. but haven't stopped visiting the meat shop for the rest of my family... every time i visit it, my decision of becoming a vegetarian is more strongly justified... and every time i visit, it seems more sensible... more meaningful...

That fellow said.. come back in half an hour... I'll put it ready for you...

I nodded and thought of going back home... But then that'll be third time I'll go home without taking it.. I kept forgetting it all morning... I thought I'll go somewhere else... Not just that i want to go home with meat... But, I just didn't want to go home..

I started walking... cross roads... n i obviously took the less trodden path.. that was just another moment when i remembered Robert Frost and his poem "Stopping by woods on a snowy evening" in which he encourages one to take the less trodden path.. This step of mine is no near to that poem or to its spirit... This is no great adventure, taking that path.. But now, i'm used to taking unusual decisions and unusual ways...

Thinking about my statement of purpose which i thought I'll finish today and didn't even touch it.. and thinking about the road, wet and dirty because of rain... Haaa.. Rain :-) i guess this is what has made me active and is making me write all this...

All day long it was a good feeling of clouds above and chilling winds... When i woke up at 11, i thought it was still 7.. i was about to sleep again thinking it's very early... and saw my mom doing pooja.. "Tea", I mumbled.. She stopped pooja and started scolding me for soo shamelessly asking for tea without brushing... she's not yet used to it... :-):-) We friends did this all the time we were out of station and during combined studies :-)

I was carried away by these thoughts and could afford to have a little smile... but then i was back again on to the road... I could see few girls.. But couldn't find anything which i wanted... They were infront of my eyes...But, behind my eyes, in my mind, I could see only one girl. These were all just normal and boring....

A faint doubt "Why am I here(on this world)?" disturbed my thoughts like the intermittent wind.. This thought or doubt arises pretty often and that's when i become slightly philosophical like now... and people become philosophical when they're alone.. And that's my exact position.

All this while i was walking through this unknown road ( I knew the road I entered.. but surely don't know this place where I'm right now) I didn't notice where i was going... Strangely the road was straight all this while i guess and I just followed it... It seemed like I walked for a long time now, i thought I would return back.. But again I wanted to see where the road ends... Guessing it has been straight all along, I wanted to see where the road ended... I resumed walking..

The surrounding seemed familiar... Just like any other calm colony.. I felt there could be no youngsters around.. Then I came across a hostel for intermediate students.. I could relate to myself 5 years ago... And another thought that "there could be some guys in here who are not really interested in cracking IIT JEE, but here because their parents and their their relatives want him to"!!!!!

The boom in Education industry in Hyderabad came as a boon to Real Estate and to ambitious parents... This boom later on brought many IT companies to Hyderabad. But it has been unfortunate for most of the 8th, 9th and 10th standard students... And now a days even to 5th, 6th and 7th... They spend time attending "EXTRA" classes. Is there a need that a 14yr old should get up early in the morning 5!! or else miss his teenage in the form of evening classes??

This thwarting still in my head, I remembered the longest walk I ever had to my Home.. It was right from Ravindra Bharathi to my home!!!!! That was when we went to watch one of my friend's program. By the time we reached, they were waiting to bid adieu.. The program was over long back and they were waiting at the gate for us. So, they left.. and I was left too.. Alone.

Searched my pockets, i had money :-) yeah... Most of the times I'm forgetting to carry money!! thought I'll take a bus home.. Waited nearly an half hour! No buses... :-)

"it should be surprising if we got one... ain't it??" that's what people say.. But never was it that way for me.. First time now.

"Auto??? Hmmm... Nooo... Let me walk till the next bus stop.." was going in my mind.

It will however be the same bus i'll take, whether this stop or the next! But just like today, that day also I wanted to walk..

Started... Reached the next stop pretty quickly as compared to the time, I'm gonna spend next. Then it occured "Why don't I walk home! From here!!!!!"

Was sitting in the stop, now got up and started walking again... The first few metres were well and fine... I was walking briskly. Then it started "How long??"

After some more time "How much more??" I was searching for an auto.. when i found one and he approached me, I was "I'm already half way.. let's finish it off, walking itself".

Then every moment from then seemed to stretch to infinity.. some seemed like they're gonna stay forever.. Could find nothing more.. All this while, i was talking to myself, no one to accompany!

"Huhh... you talked a lot to yourSELF.. enough now.. take an auto"

"Can't you see?? you're almost home... Why an auto noww?? You should've done that earlier"

"stop it noww.... " that was the third ME

ALL of us however agreed with the 2nd...

The rest was quick again... But, Ravindra Bharathi to home is quite a long distance!!

This way, i was doing unusual things all this while... unpredictable with myself..

UNPREDICTABLE it was, All the time. This journey!

It has always been a path of chances rather than a path of choices..

I guess that the other one, the path of choices would have been boring and uninteresting...!

I didn't know this post will become this long 'a tiring story' when I started it!!

Not predicted!

Sampath's village

Sampath called me the before day, asking me "rey will u come to Appannapalle?? I'm going now".

"Now!! Hmm.... I'll come 2moro raa.. is that ok?"

"yaa... but come fast so that we all can meet"

"Who ALL???!!??"

"Now actually 7 of us are going there raa... They'll leave 2moro... soo come early 2moro... catch the first train"

"yeah sure raa... byee... have fun"

Morning... As usual late.. now I'll not get that first train... Brother dropped me at Imliban(bus stop)

Found a bus.. Not NON STOP.

I don't like children when they're grown enough that they're no more innocent!!

And i came across two children crying annoyingly.. these two guys were beyond that age and I heard them on the platform itself.

Searched a nice seat away from these two. The bus started. Even before it left the bus stand, few people waved hands and it stopped. Then again after 5 minutes, some other waved and it stopped. Few more minutes passed and again and again and again it stopped.

By the grace of the heavens, we could cross Hyderabad that day!! then again one father waved. The mother and child followed him into the bus... Now I could have known names of all, even the smallest  of villages between Hyderabad and Appannapalle if this family didn't occupy the space beside me.

They were standing. Son became a burden and mother asked help.. A

sked me help. I looked at the father.. He was looking outside the window.. I looked at the old man on my other side.. He would have shouted "take him... why you looking at me" if his mouth wasn't full of Pan Parag!

I took him... He's also beyond THAT age.. He felt hungry and started crying... I felt angry but couldn't do anything!!

His mom wasn't giving him his lolly pop! And he was crying crying and dancing on me... i thought I'm gonna scream now and the bus stopped again... 

Few more people in and fortunately that old couple besides me got up.. I moved to the window and those 2 empty were occupied by that family. That boy was still crying. He cried cried and cried until his mouth dried up and he fell asleep. 

She was happy. Happy was the father too... Happiest was me. 

This way i was heading towards my childhood memories. TO my home place.. Where i was not born... Neither brought up nor even lived. It was where I always felt like at Home. 

I was there after 3 hours.. Every1 waiting for my company for breakfast. I was waiting to see that place.. My Home.. That farm of my uncle's where I had the best of moments... Where we chased lambs, where we played till we got hurt, where we fed chicks till they were fed up of us!, where we spent evenings until night came, where we played in wet mud, where we felt HOME.

Where our sister lay Burried deep under, under these many years of losing and missing her, these many years of experiences!

The rest of the time went by superbly. Need not mention it If i say that It was all with friends. Friends... :-)

Visited "Pillala Marri"in Mahabubnagar, a Giant Banyan Tree. Here are those pics..>>

But everything has changed. There was not a tree we spent our time under.

When I lived in Mahabubnagar, we all wanted it to develop. People were awaiting development. It came.. I left the town. And after seven years I don't find people there any Happier than we children were then!!!!

Opposite Poles

the past 2 days, soo many thoughts or a mixture of feelings have been just flowing around... 

in the gaze of my eyes,

and reach of my hands...

But my hands not willing to grip them

or even touch them

And my eyes reluctant to watch them!!!

Good ones flying away, without giving any hints

and leaving the space for bad ones...

some getting stuck inside and some just leaving making no sense or warning!!!

No idea whether this is because of the rejection of facts!!

Or is it the intersection of poles!!!??

Feelings and thoughts

Heart and Mind!!

 

Winter

last night, as soon as i entered my room, i closed all the windows and the door.

But it was still cold... i closed them all becaaause it was cold, and even after doin that it was cold...

thought i got some cold fever because of those sick exams!!

early in the morning when i woke up(around 10, that's early in vacation guys), my lips were looking like a tree's bark!!!

this time i got the clue... it's winter.. it has arrived again... as soon as the rainy left?

No no.. it was some time since it rained here in hyderabad! So quite some gap or a hiatus!

Huhh! due to lack of work, i was reading a blog till now and becuase of the high level english used

there, i'm at loss of words... all the while i was trying to use such english and couldn't write more than 5 lines like that... So forget it...

Well it has been damn damn laazy today... 2nd day after exams... first day we went to a movie.. but cannot continue that all through vacation...

I feel absurd to call it a vacation... one week is never a vacation in between semesters dear Osmania...

But it's the loongest we got i guess! for 2nd yr we got some 3 days... in which one was sunday!!

same for the next sems tooo...

At present it's cool outisde, and i'm sitting inside my room with all windows shut!!

my brain has been shut to all external stimuli since morning...

And i remember last december when my friend was asking for AC in exaactly these conditions.. it's stuppid first of all and then this AC thing shuts you off from your surroundings...

i feel this every time AC's on! And while traveling toh it's more absurd!!

Right from childhood.. I used to feel WTF... but just that i didn't know that word then!

it's like just being in a room and moving to somewhere else... u just don't get to know about the outside! It's not required to... but even then!!!

and today slept like a log all afternoon... aaah.. woow... how refreshing it was!! had this pleasure after a loong time... i like my school days for this reason surely.. used to have looong vacations and looong afternoon sleeps! :-)

have been only only only reading blogs all day! many were good...

some were more self centered than my blogs were...

i think it's better i stop it here... I'm just typing words.. with no direction.. as said earlier with all digressions!!! as usual.. but thing is I'm not interested this time..

However winter has come... clear skies, cool winds... bringing us fresh ideas and super cool feelings and experiences... :-)

looking forward for them... :-)

and ya, yesterday's case(accident one)

she escapes from the accident case.. it's turned onto their driver.. police now say their driver after dropping that girl at the college caused this accident while returning back home!!

nonsense!

well, the father is dead... and son severely hurt!

i

post's title is not 1.. it's "i"...

after suggesting a friend to read my blog, i thought of reading it myself to direct him to the best ones directly... while reading all those posts, i realized i use I, I, I, I soo many times... all the posts completely revolve around me.. my thoughts... my feelings... my frustrations... my mood swings... my love... my hatred.... my deeds... my poems..... everything mine...

well, i shouldn't have been so egoistic... is that right?? or is it egotistic??

whatever it is, i shouldn't have been soo self centred... But what to do, only now have i observed that.. well i can try now onwards to concentrate less upon me..

What shall i concentrate upon then?

Shall i write about my friends?!! huh?? should I?? that's again about me... No?? (no? is a question)//

shall i write about the sky? about the weather? or about politics? No//

about books or film and music reviews??

There are already many blogs about them and many people writing about them...!!

SO what to write about now??? Lemme choose a topic on which no one has ever written or even thought to write...

Something no one even know much to write about....

What could that be??

I can think of only one such topic and that's "ME".. No one knows me better than myself and no one has written about me TILL NOW...

So,:-) I 'll not concentrate upon things people already know

Let THEM know me now... and this is it... when the blog itself is meant to be written about me, I wouldn't be writing about something else

So, this blog will as usually have My thoughts... My feelings... My poems.. and all that... aaall that, that's related to me.. that i can relate to...

Now you know what I'm trying to explain... Even if, you too find the posts being completely about me, u need not worry... or get to conclusions..

Have Fun..