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If the fire's not hurting you, it doesn't mean it is cold. It only means, you're away from it.

---- Ranjith

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The humanity keeps boasting of it's creativity and art without looking above it, into the sky. The clouds make patterns to remind us of originality.

---- a "li'l confused" Ranjith

Longing

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Felt like, one of those winds ruffling my hair was her wish to touch me!

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Farewell

Well, this is what i spoke on our Farewell day.. management farewell by the way! on behalf of our class.. these set of scratched papers I found while searching for someother thing! I did edit this slightly

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Good afternoon to all the elders on the dias and off the dias.. Hi friends & Hey third years

We'd firstly like to thank the department and you people for organizing this. We're very grateful.

Now that we're graduating or rather leaving the college, I'd like to remind you that we're just 120 people graduating as Chemical Engineers from Osmania.. and a slightly greater number from all over AP and we people here definitely belong to the best among them. We have to realize how special we are, compared to the thousands of other engineers graduating every year.

In shaping such special 60 individuals, the most important factor is the faculty and lab staff.

Our HOD Mr.Charyulu Sir was always wanted us to lead a life of purity and honesty and guided us towards it. Those things he used to point out and explain all played vital in shaping us.

With R.Sreedhar Rao sir, it has always been a journey of learning. Especially during the project seminars, we used to sit admiring him and his intellect. He once said "Engineering is a mini-world" and we realized it every moment since then.

We learned a lot out of these 4 years at CBIT. It has been a learning place.. a playing space and what not?? Everything.. A second home to all of us.

During Ananth Kumar sir's classes, the subject used to get absorbed on it's own and during Naga Prapurna ma'am's classes the subject used to get injected directly into our veins. We used to get so thorough as though we always knew those concepts.

B.Sreedhar Rao sir's and Balakrishna sir's classes were always fun-filled and we all like them a lot for that.

At present, we're missing Sitaramayya sir and Soumya ma'am here from the faculty who taught us. Sitaramayya Sir!! aah, we regard him as GOD of chemical engineering. Special thanks to him for his clarity and ease at subject.

Now, you JUNIORS. you people are going to be the senior most students in college in few months from now. All the best to you.

Together, we almost bagged the overall Shruthi Cup. Better luck next time.

All through our association we could've been slightly harsh towards you guys. Forget it, it's not intentional. Also, there are many good things between us to be remembered.

One suggestion, we 4th years wanted to give you: PLAN your 4th year.

All of your MUST plan your career paths in this vacation you'll be getting. It's high time you realize this. All the best.

Thankyou. Take care.

well, covering 4 years in few minutes was hard but I tried my level best :) thankyou :)

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that's ME

Just any boy, with

beliefs, disbeliefs, decisions, precisions, feelings, fears, gears, notions, motions, what not!! everything about everything in life... MY life and MY thoughts

Moments... survived.. surviving

Like someone spalshing water all over with a bucket... cold water.. hitting hard.. couldn't open my eyes... through a small slit between my eye lids.. I could see few lights.. dimmer ones farther and some bright and near.. constantly changing postions... Incapable of estimating the speed!

I had to reach home!! I could have waited! No, I had to reach home!

My hands holding the bike's handle... they looked pale.. they looked wrinkled... they were shivering/// Indeed my whole body was shaking... eyes opened only If I saw downwards!! rain has formed a continuously running water-film on my eyes... For sometime I drove with one hand, using the other to wipe water off my eyes.. I tried hard to stop the cold leaking into me by cuddling into the raincoat (ya, I was wearing one.. which was of no use!)

It was two years back when I was riding home from Imliban.. around 12 in the night... My bike.. almost closed eyes!!... rash traffic.. our roads.. a downpour..!! Dunno how I survived that night!!!

When I reached home, I find my eyes bluee... face white as a ghost! and my body was shrunken due to the cold..

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This moment, I sit idle.. This moment that I'm here.. in this chair.. in my home, sweet home.. with brother whom I can see sleeping... and sense parents in the other room.. and feel happy about sona loittering somewhere around... The assurance of all these souls around.. the safety.. I get food on time.. I'm asked if I had lunch... If I had breakfast.. If I want something///

This very moment that I'm here.. that I'm idle.. though not happy about it, but surely not regretting about anything in life... This very moment

Wish every moment from now would be at least half better as this one!! pessimistic!!! well, even that doesn't help... many months are gonna be worse!!!

That fact makes me smile..!!

Help me!

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That was just one night through which I survived.. there are many more.. soo many more instances... every time I thought

"uuhh, this is it"

"this is the end"

"Ohh shit! it's over"

"Thank god!!"

I almost hit the edge of a divider! almost ran into an open man hole..! almost nudged the edge of the bus! Almost went under the tyres!!

Just soo many times.. It was always dangerous living on my bike... It's not the need to drive fast... but the frustration to lag behind so many!!! when the roads are empty, I drive much slower!!

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I feel like a hypocrite when I remember those things I told but couldn't do!!! not promises!! but other things!

I did many things I said.. I said many things I did!! but not those... those things which normal people don't try...

well, yeah that's it!!!

Escape

I was expecting patients (like lookin like patients) while entering the Institute of Preventive Medicine. Bewildered when I found tens of students like me who have come for some kind of vaccination. Seemed like only those leaving India require them!

Well, other than that went no where today! quite boring isn't it. well, I did supplement it however. When the shutters were just closing and people running home.

It was slightly drizzling and late in the evening when I was out to bring some crap.. I was returning home and while entering the apartment, my soul grunts "COME OOONN"

Pheww.. sigh!!! "Ok" I say and we (me, my soul) set out on a short trip. It was drizzling (I know!! second time) and cold... very cold.

The second time I come home.. same grunting.. and this time, went right to a flyover.. :-) :-) The wind blowing hard on my face.. Felt like a cold wightless handkerchief just drifting away on my face, touching my hair. When I sense my hair flying while driving, I feel like John Abraham's hair style.. well I see the mirror and I find wires on my head!

Anyone who asks me a lift, gets it. Yeah just as I passed one guy, I saw through the corner of my eye, he asking me lift and feeling maybe he missed the oppourtunity. I stop a few feet away... he comes running and asks

"ekkadi varaku velthunnaru?" (*with respect* "what's your destination??")

Me "Ahmmm... ahemmm!!! aumm! straight velthunnanu" (*pointing down the road* "I'm goin straight")

Smiling, he got onto the bike..

The rain striked harder now, the wind became louder. With lots of trouble he was trying to engage me in a conversation.

Trying to look backwards and shouting, I said "Nadapadam konchem kashtam ga undi, let me concentrate" (Let me concentrate on my driving)

I didn't see his face again till he got down. He conveyed his Thanks. Immediately I took a U-turn to go back. Now, his eyes were fixed on me. He was surely more grateful now. I liked the look and the thing that I'm gone crazy these days :-)

The wind got louder and the roads got noisier but a faint but high pitched "Thank you very much" managed to reach my ears.

A faint smile managed to escape my lips.

just checking e-mail posting

same thing@!